Recent events in my family have caused me to think back to the time before Jace was born. After learning of our baby’s diagnosis, my husband and I prayed so much for healing. So many people around us were praying for healing for our baby- that his heart would be whole and healed miraculously.

It’s so easy to be confused and angry when this doesn’t happen. We are asking God for this healing, why won’t He do it? My husband and I believed He could, but why didn’t He?

We don’t know why. Isn’t that a hard response to read… we don’t know.

However, in this mystery, I have learned to consider two things. First, that God is sovereign. Some synonyms to sovereign include: boundless, supreme, absolute, unrestricted. If I believe that God is unrestricted and boundless, He is far greater than I and I will not always understand His ways. God doesn’t ask us to understand, however, He asks us to trust. The second thing I try to remember in the unknown is that God’s character is good and that He does fulfill His promises.

When I am struggling in my walk with God, the common thread in every struggle is doubting God’s character or His goodness.

Only recently, two years after our baby was born, have I been comforted by something. God will heal Jace. God promises that. Even though God has not healed him right now, on earth, someday Jace will have a whole heart. He will be able to run and jump and have no worries about his physical body. “He will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death’ or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away.” Revelation 21:4

That is a promise.

Over the past two months, our world has been shaken by a family member’s medical diagnosis. All these emotions I have around praying for healing have resurfaced. The verse I have chosen to pray right now is Psalm 103:2-4 “Praise the Lord, O my soul, and forget not all His benefits. Who forgives all your sins and heals all your diseases, who redeems your life from the pit and crowns you with love and compassion.”

God will heal all our diseases. Whether it is in this life or the next, God will heal His people. We are all broken in some way and I look forward to the day when sin and pain and sickness do not exist. Until then, I choose to trust these promises and know that in this life or the next, Jace will be healed and have a whole heart. ❤️